Forgive and forget, let go and move on

"Don’t dwell on old issues or grievances, not toward yourself nor your neighbor." -Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

Marlisa, repent! That's what I got from this line. I don't usually hold grudges. Forgive, forget, and move on. However there have been some who have made it complicated for me to fully move on. The lack of communication has made things harder for me. For example, I want so badly for one certain individual to apologize. I tried to patch things up even when I had no idea what was going on. She has chosen to ignore the situation and cut off communication. In a way I feel more sorry for her. She dropped two friends who cared very much for her. She will have to live with her actions. And though I find her ignorance unacceptable, I have no more reason to care. It doesn't matter, it's in the past. I admit that I love this individual regardless of her actions. She truly is a wonderful young lady! Always has been, and always will be. But I can no longer carry this burden with me. Goodbye.

I choose to forgive and forget.

Let go. One by one, I am letting go. Letting go of those silly little things that I stress over. Letting go of bad habits. Letting go of those people who no longer matter. Letting go of those silly boys who break hearts. Letting go of anythings that kicks me down.
Move on. Move on to meet those people who matter. Move on to reach those dreams. Move on to that happiness that awaits me. Move on to meet that one boy who is worth my time. Move on to live my life with nothing to hold me back. Move on, God is waiting.

 I need Him.

 “Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.”

The Lord is wonderful! He makes me better! He gives me strength, even through sore trials. He guides me and walks beside me. He hears me and wipes away my tears. He breaks my heart to make it bigger and stronger. His constant companionship is all I can hold on to and rely on. I love this quote, because it has reminded me that I always need the Lords companionship.

I got comfortable with life. I got to the point where I didn't really ask for help or talk to my Heavenly Father like I used to. I got too comfortable. And just like the house in the above quote, the familiar, comfortable walls began to fall, one by one. Things were rearranged. Things got lost. Things got out of control. Things broke. I broke. I knew I needed help, but I didn't want to ask. I was ashamed of myself for forgetting what was important. When I thought things couldn't get worse, they did. All of those hurt feelings that I thought I had buried and diminished, came back. Looking in the mirror was painful. I felt like a monster. I finally cracked and my knees sunk into the ground. I asked for forgiveness, for healing, for comfort, and for guidance. The rebuilding began. Walls came back up, but this time were firmly attached. Things changed, but for the better. I sorted out those "unburied' burdens.

I let go. I'm moving on. 

My dreams are still worth reaching for. But at least this time, the load will be much lighter! Promises are renewed. I will never forget that the Lord is always in charge. He will lead and guide me to my happiness. I'm always hand in hand with Him! Letting go is so therapeutic. It's quite lovely, actually! I have no where else to go other than to move forward. One step at a time. It wasn't an easy process. But it was possible. I don't feel so heavy anymore. I don't have time nor the energy to carry all this extra baggage. Forgive and forget, let go and move on.