Sunday

It's almost 2:00 in the morning and five of us girls are fighting sleep. Why? Because my dear roommate/best friend is engaged and we are waiting to see her ring and hear the proposal story! Exciting? ABSOLUTELY! Exhausted? More than you know! You see, she is with her fiance right now and we do not know when she is coming home. And guess what?! We have 9:00 church in the morning. Oh goody! Looks like we'll either be really hyper or dead tired. I'll post more later!!!

***11 hours later***

My roommate got home at 3:00 and we talked for an hour and then we all hit the sack. I'm super excited for her!!! Her ring is beautiful and she is glowing.!

We all woke up this morning in this order:
6:50 - Me
7:30ish - Ressa
7:45ish - Autumn
7:50ish - Katherine
8:00 - Tristyn
8:10 - Ashley
We were all exhausted. We all ate breakfast. We all got ready for church. And we were all on time! Good deal considering the fact that we were so tired!

Church was quite wonderful! I felt like I was able to take some time to think and re-evaluate my life. A few days ago, I called my mom in frustration and pretty much cried and complained to her for a good 20 minutes. Being the amazing mother that she is, she listened and talked to me and helped me put things into perspective. I've been thinking a lot about what she and I talked about today and it just so happened that the topics at church were exactly what I needed. They fit in perfectly with the discussion I had with my mom. This reaffirmed to me that the Lord knows me and is watchful of me! I just can't say that enough!

"O how great the goodness of our God, who prepareth a way for our escape from the grasp of this awful monster; yea, that monster, death and hell, which I call the death of the body, and also the death of the spirit." (2 Nephi 9:10) I read this scripture in Sunday school and I was overwhelmed with gratitude. God helps me "escape" from the chains that bind me down. All I have to do is obey his commandments and utilize the atonement in my life. I am not perfect. I make mistakes. I've made many mistakes, however there is no better feeling than to know that because of Jesus Christ, I have a way to "escape" and return back to my Heavenly Father.

"Behold, my beloved brethren, remember the words of your God; pray unto him continually by day, and give thanks unto his holy name by night. Let your hearts rejoice." (2 Nephi 9:52) I love this verse! I can be happy when I put God first and obey his commandments. I love the last line, because to me, I felt like it was the Lord saying this: "Please follow me! Please allow yourself to rejoice with happiness! You have every reason to be happy! Please follow me and obey my commandments and by doing so, you will be so, so happy!"

I was reminded today that no matter how hard I try, I can't overcome my trials and burdens alone. I am broken and I've been trying the past two weeks to put myself back together. And I thought that I could do it on my own. But I can't. The Lord has been watching me and just waiting for me to ask him for help. I neglected him at times, thinking that I could handle it on my own. But I was sadly mistaken. After remembering everything that the atonement entails, I prayed for forgiveness and asked the Lord to make me whole again. I know the Lord will hold my hand through this. He's gotten me through so much before and I know that he will this time. He loves me and I cannot deny that!

You don't have to be independent and put together. It's okay to be broken and to have someone help you. If anything, it's okay to be broken. Just remember that Heavenly Father has a way for you to be whole again. It's through his son Jesus Christ, that you can be made whole.

Fix You
-Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

The Lord will fix you! He will replace all the broken pieces with new ones. He will reassemble you, but this time, He will make you so much stronger than you were before. You will become so strong that it will be so much harder for the Adversary to try and break you. All you have to do is turn to him and let him take over! Being broken doesn't have to be permanent.


Remember, God loves you! You are never alone! He cares about you so much and wants to be part of your life. Jesus Christ atoned for your sins, he has felt all of your pain, and he has paved a path for you to return back to our Heavenly Father. If you ever feel overwhelmed, frustrated, hurt, or worthless, don't forget that you can go to your Heavenly Father and he will help you. Do you have a safe place? I do. My safe place is where I can escape to and guess who I know is waiting there for me? He is always there for me!

Happy Sunday :)